“Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same” Emily Bronte
I adore love and romance, but after numerous bad experiences and disappointments I was becoming cynical.
If you meet someone at some point in your life that you love, and that doesn’t happen how you would like, it is difficult to feel amorous towards other, very nice, very suitable men, which has been my curse for too long.
My last two valentines days have been a disaster so I was kind of dreading this year. Last year I got stood up which is probably the most tilting thing that can happen on Valentines Day. The year before, my boyfriend at the time refused to book to go out anywhere. So he went to the pub and I cooked a meal and dressed up as a nurse upon request, for him to come home with no card or present and fall asleep snoring on the couch.
So this year I had no plans and thought…’well atleast nothing is better than horribleness’. But it turned out better than I was expecting. I got a big gorgeous card off my Dad which is great and the only one I expected. I also got 2 others, 300% more than last year wooooo 
. One was a surprise and didn’t expect this person to send me one. The other was off someone ive not known long but who had gone to the effort of writing me a poem which was really personal and really nice. Its always an honour to when someone goes to that amount of effort for you. He said such nice things about me and made me feel valued again. Mr poet asked me if I had any plans and when I said no he asked me if he could take me out. He is a cool person and good company so i thought ‘why not’. It was really good! Watched Ghost in the West End which was a really good show, very well produced, funny, really entertaining, then we went to China town for a meal.
So i actually had a good day this year. I am hoping that it is all up from here and every valentines day from now on will get more romantic, more love filled, gift filled and happiness filled.
This is a valentines day post so I have to include some true love content. I cant draw from my own world so I am bringing it to you from another world.
Here is the urban dictionaries definition of ‘soul mate’. I couldn’t decide which one I preferred so I put both in. You can decide which is more beautiful:
“A person with whom you have an immediate connection the moment you meet – a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced before. As this connection develops over time, you experience a love so deep, strong and complex, that you begin to doubt that you have ever truly loved anyone prior. Your soulmate understands and connects with you in every way and on every level, which brings a sense of peace, calmness and happiness when you are around them. And when you are not around them, you are all that much more aware of the harshness of life, and how bonding with another person in this way is the most significant and satisfying thing you will experience in your lifetime. You are also all that much aware of the beauty in life, because you have been given a great gift and will always be thankful”.
“Someone that you meet you feel an immediate connection to. Someone that makes you believe in god due to the feelings that spring out of your heart and soul willing or unwilling you feel as though you need that person! I do not believe that this person has to be your one and only, the one you marry but you always feel this person with you no matter where you are! It is greater than an earthly love! It is one soul two bodies! Treasure if you are even lucky enough to meet this person, your other half! Enjoy the things shared do not get stuck on trying to define what you are just except that there are greater things that we have no words to explain, they are just God-sent!”
Here is Paulo Coelho’s verse for Valentine’s day. I don’t relate to this personally as I am never scared to take risk, and would choose the risk of suffering over not knowing any day. But I think a lot of people do have walls built up from past hurt and will relate to this. Plus I wanted to include it because he is my favourite writer and it is a beautiful piece of writing.
“My heart is afraid to suffer”
“Why do we have to listen to our hearts?” the boy asked, when they had made camp that day.
“Because, wherever your heart is, that is where you’ll find your treasure.”
“But my heart is agitated,” the boy said. “It has its dreams, it gets emotional, and it’s become passionate over a woman of the desert. It asks things of me, and it keeps me from sleeping many nights, when I’m thinking about her.”
“Well, that’s good. Your heart is alive. Keep listening to what it has to say.”
“My heart is a traitor,” the boy said to the alchemist, when they had paused to rest the horses. “It doesn’t want me to go on.”
“That makes sense. Naturally it’s afraid that, in pursuing your dream, you might lose everything you’ve won.”
“Well, then, why should I listen to my heart?”
“Because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. ”
“You mean I should listen, even if it’s treasonous?”
“Treason is a blow that comes unexpectedly. If you know your heart well, it will never be able to do that to you. Because you’ll know its dreams and wishes, and will know how to deal with them.
“My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer,” the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at the moonless sky.
“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.”
From “The Alchemist”
Finally, here is the best scene of my favourite film Moulin rouge. If someone I loved was to take me to the Moulin Rouge in Paris for Valentine’s day that would be the peak of my Valentines happiness, wouldn’t get much better than that for me.
I hope everyone I know has felt loved today ♥
“If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.”
A. A. Milne
